OKAY SERIOUSLY I KNOW I HATE LIVING AT JEFF’S PARENTS

AND ALL THAT JAZZ

but I MISS STARBUCKS MORE

Like I am meant to be a barista… Its my calling. I know that sounds silly and whatever and everyone hates on Starbucks but I LOVED it. I didn’t enjoy certain days, certain people whatever and I am so thankful for my new job that pays like 3493739x better than Starbucks but it hurts my heart. I miss the green apron. I miss seeing the smile on peoples faces because I made them a delicious beverage. I miss being behind the bar during a rush on Saturday morning. I miss my wonderful partners like Joscelyne. Sure I never fucking slept and I was exhausted to the max but I was having so much fun.

I left the bux because Jeff was moving to ND and I was gonna move too and the closest bux was 2 hours away from where we were gonna be. So I took some leave just in case. Then we ended up not leaving and for some fucked up reason I decided to not go back. I regret it everyday. I even had a chance to go back in like March at a different store as a shift but I psyched myself out because I remembered all the bad things about it. The no sleep, the inconsistent schedule, the stupid ASM I worked with and the tiny paychecks and I decided to not call him back to schedule my interview. 

I made my bed and now I have to lie in it but I just fucking miss it. 

OMGGGG

cherry-maulface:

Yes I mean you Stacie.

Cheer up, darling!

AWW thank you Steffi!! I <3333 you!

Sorry I didn’t see this last night - I turned off the computer and went to bed but this was wonderful to wake up to!!! 

<3333

z1c:

being 20+ on tumblr

(via 87daysbefore)

Hahah I am just really emotionally exhausted and burnt out and I don’t get why life has to be so hard and I just want some time to myself like without Jeff’s family around. Like when we get our own place again I am just gonna veg out for like a week. 

fuuuuuuuuuuccccckkkkk

sadness party of one ~~~